The Bunny Stroker Meets the Curb Stomper

Just a couple thoughts today on certain spiritual beliefs that seem to be cropping up with an ever increasing frequency. Many people out there seem to gravitate towards the fuzzy bunny approach to their world view. While I certainly think it is wise to try and view with an optimistic eye, some of these beliefs cross my line of acceptance. The so called "New Age" movement of universal spirituality comes to mind. Now don't get me wrong, I am not ripping the whole belief structure. I have just been a little concerned about certain aspects. Mainly, this whole ignore the bad theory. Here are my concerns.

Many seem to think that focusing on anything other than only so called positive aspects automatically makes you the opposite. Case in point. One common belief held by some is you should not resist anything or you will become that thing you are resisting. What? I think that's fucking ridicules. I will be the first to admit, I am not running through a field of flowers, petting bunnies, singing songs of how peaceful the wonderful world is because I know how to live in love and light. I am also not curb stomping the heads of every asshole that disagrees with me. There is a place of sanity and reality from which to operate. I am also fully aware that the vast majority do not share my view of this place. However there is a happy medium between bunny strokers and curb stompers. In the extremes I think the point becomes clear. Even though it can be said that these fringe dwellers can push the boundaries of society, we can also surmise there are just as many dead ends as anything else out in fringe land.

One side would have everything sunny and bright and full of love and never any conflict. Such a place may exist, but it sure isn't here. The other side is completely consumed in control through threat of violence, lurking in the shadows, ignorant of insight, and that side doesn't always exist here either. So is it better to ignore things or worry about every little thing? Obviously the best way to maximize the learning curve would be to be open to investigate all sides of the spectrum. My whole point here being, whether you like it or not, we all have a bunny stroking, curb stomping side of us. To ignore either aspect is devastating to being. We live in a dynamic universe where forces naturally oppose and attract depending on polarity. Destruction bores creation and creation proceeds destruction in a never ending spiral of universal energy. If I were forced to put a moral judgement on it, it would have to ALL be good. Ultimately there is no good or bad, there just is. Incorporation of all things under the sun.

The other troubling aspect of bunny stroking is the tendency to allow everything. I'm going to contradict myself in certain aspects here. Assuming the highest aspect is, and it may not be, that there is no true good or bad, then allowance would seem to fit the bill. But then couldn't one argue that complete control would equally fit the bill? Maybe my own struggle lies with this seeming cohabitation of free will, and the external control paradigm. Maybe I spend too much time on the fringe! One thing that is clear. The act of defiance is considered undesirable by lord master, yet is one of the most powerful expressions of free will. Self empowerment comes when you realize the only one who lives with your actions is you. You chose how you interact in the physical world. Do you cast a shadow that you demand others to dwell within, or do you shine a beacon of truth upon the dark underbelly of repression? Perhaps recognition and balance of the sides would negate the need for struggle. Is it possible to coexist in a world of mutual respect and appreciation for the opposing view? Maybe if we all realize that everyone has the same instincts inside we could come to an agreement that you don't really need to stroke a bunny to be respectful and sensative of others, and you also don't need to curb stomp another humans skull to feel empowered. In the end, all lessons must be learned to coexist in peace and respect.

What if?

What if this life is really just a game. When it ends we ALL just go home as friends, grateful for the roles we played in each others lives. We understood that all the difficulties are just contrived little learning experiences. The more of an emotional imprint, the deeper the lesson. Could it be that maybe this is why some are so much more sensitive to things, while others carry on as if nothing really matters? Neither being right or wrong, just different.

One of the fascinating things I see is the fact that you have 6.7 billion people here, and no two are identical. We all share so many similarities and yet we can be so different. What could possibly account for this? We all have physical bodies. We all have thoughts and emotions. We all have spirit and soul. (Many argue this and perhaps therein lies the difference.) We all share in the same needs yet we go about satisfying these needs in many different ways.

Another fascinating occurrence I have noticed is a merger. Our scientific understandings are starting to explain many spiritual understandings. What if it is not understanding at all? What if it is remembering? Remembering who we really are and where we came from. Are our origins really what we are taught they are? What if the truth of our origins was a mixture of creationism and evolution? What if? (To put it bluntly I have always maintained we came from the star people fucking the monkeys! Or perhaps a more appropriate explanation would be an extraterrestrial race mixed their DNA with the Neanderthal race.)

Many people have told me to stop wasting my time asking questions that can never be answered. But is it really a waste of time? How can you waste something that doesn't truly exist? Oh but I love the questions. They help me to maintain the proper perspective on things. We seem to have been given this curious nature, why shouldn't we use it to it's fullest extent? Perhaps our dream time holds a clue for us. Where are we really going when we dream?

One thing I know for certain. Life gets more interesting with each passing day. Collectively we are certain to be in for a wild ride. It's an incredible process to teach 6.7 billion people intertwining spiritual lessons that challenge the expert and novice alike. There's a reason we all came here at once you know. I dare say we are here to experience the event of our lifetimes. I think we are here to experience one galactic, massive, awakening moment of AHA! Are you ready? What if?

Each Day

It is easy to become frustrated and worn out when looking at the insanity of our human world. One can easily lose the perspective that things are as they should be. I some times grow weary attempting to influence change into the world. Each day I try to focus on the wrongs that will be righted as a result of awareness being changed. I firmly know that the powers of perception are not only important, but on a global scale, one of the most important games in town.

Moving from a place of dread and fear, to a place of strength and love is monumental in an individuals life. This in and of it's self can be a crowning moment in ones life. Far beyond any wealth or notoriety that can be derived from this life. Those things are but temporal and will be left with the body. The things of true value can be taken with us when we part the veil. One thing seems clear to me at this time. We have all agreed to partake in a very interesting moment in time where the challenges are in direct proportion to the rewards. In other words, if you are having an extremely tough time in this world, and still you press on and continue to strive to be more than when you came here, your efforts will not just be in vain, but to the contrary, you will gain great inner understanding of all things, positive and negative.

Each day is a new opportunity for expansion. Even the smallest bit of growth has importance. To further increase the perception of the true understanding of reality brings a certain peace, acceptance and quite strength within. My goal is to shine a light into the dark crevices of acts of control, fear mongering, and deception. Some call these works evil. I call them catalyst for spiritual growth. For even as the body needs food, the mind needs to be fed, as the soul needs nourishment also. This is a simple fact of life for us. To withhold any of these vital necessities means decline and decay and eventually a death of sorts. Life is energy. It has but only two paths, to decline and decay, or increase and grow. Periods of neutrality or stagnation are possible also, but for only limited periods of time. Everything will eventually change into something else.

As I become more aware and educated to the exact nature of the game here, I begin to understand why it is so important for many to try to deceive others about the game. As I said life is energy. Negative life feeds off of negative energy. Negative energy is released most efficiently through negative emotions. These create a vibratory wave pattern that is more favorable in its ability to provide energetic food for those who have a need to control others through domination and intimidation. Fear is sensed by every predator. It is a signal to the predator of vulnerability. For truly it is the reason that the weakest will be attacked. The rest of the prey will form into a herd and try to blend in together so as to not be singled out and have their weakness exposed. If you look at society you will see these natural principles mirrored back with stunning precision.

However, if you start to have visions of a more highly ordered society you will start to understand that our present society is mirrored after a lower order. This is why people continue to make the mistake of looking to, and trusting authority figures to take care of and protect them. By their mere nature it is impossible for them to do so. What is so confusing is we are seeing the decay of all structures that are of a lower order of energetic expression. This is a natural occurrence as the energies are nowhere near to being balanced at this time. The very fundamental expressions of energy in society have declined into ravenous predators, feeding on society itself. The very institutions supposedly designed to feed or empower the masses are in reality gorging themselves and depriving them instead. Governments, monetary institutions, and religions have all been intentionally distorted in their presentation to the masses, to make us believe they are vitally necessary, when in reality they are the leading causes of every malady known to mankind. By their very nature, they attract the most ruthless, psychopathic, predatorial people in society to lead them. It is these structural flaws that are allowing the crumbling we see today. It is very frightening to most. They have brain washed us into believing that without them anarchy will rule. Look around you. Anarchy is ruling at this very moment, because of them.

The secret lies within you. It is also no longer a secret. You have the incredible power within you to be all the changes you wish to see manifest in our world! Be the leader you wish to be led by. Provide for others what you wish you had. Give the love you desire. Imagine the poor receiving all the wealth you wish you had. These things are happening. Each day those who deprive others of something are experiencing more and more difficulty carrying on as they normally would have. Those who find empathy and love for others are finding ways to express that at even greater levels. Truth is finding a way to be broadcast at unheard of levels. Society is being forced to take inventory of all goods. Things that have been lying on a shelf that are of use will be brought down and integrated. Things that have no use will be discarded. The whole system will be scrutinized. Value will be reestablished to it's proper need. Once the inventory is complete and the clean up finished we shall be able to operate under proper pretext once again. Each day brings us closer. Each day a new possibility to balance the flow. We will experience challenges. We will experience the ongoing purification process to cleanse and refine the intent. Sometimes it will be extremely difficult. Please understand that it is worth every moment. Try only not to fear the process. Try not to judge others progress through the process. It is through these means that you will lessen the severity of your own purification, and try to remain flexible throughout as many things will change very quickly. We are at the time we came here to live in. We are who we have been waiting for. We will experience these things more with each day.

Heavy Handed!

Sometimes I am considered heavy handed in my approach to writing. I can only answer guilty to these charges. It's not like I am writing for better homes and garden. The beauty of writing your own blog is you don't have to worry about such things. I try just to keep it real.

Emotions are a part of life. Sometimes they become overwhelming. It is very easy to get upset when you give a shit about people. Sometimes I truly wonder why I have such a drive. I guess once the bottom line sinks out of sight, I only hope someone else found some benefit from these lines I set on this page. Even if only one is spared the sudden surprise of bewilderment when things become uncovered.

I remember when the 9-11 bell tolled in my head. It took awhile. It was a one-two combo that knocked me out. Iraq, Afghanistan. Nine years later we are still doing that mess! Something gonged in my head very loudly. I went back and started seeking info everywhere about 9-11. That day was such a tragedy on so many different levels. I was very rudely awakened that year.

Things seemed simple for me. Earn money, to get a bunch of crap, that I could pretend made me happy, or at least distracted from what was going on around me. After a few years of searching and studying, things are much more clearer. We have been here before. We have shared the same exact struggle. Sometimes remembering that really pisses me off. That realization sounds like a huge gong that reverberates through me in waves, only after many moments, to silence itself. Remembering is a love-hate relationship! Some of you may recognize what I'm talking about. It is an odd feeling, and yet, you can't help but think it is really important to feel that way sometimes.

So as time keeps on ticking, it becomes more important to not mince words. We live in a controlled environment, and even though we think our thoughts are all our own, most of our ideas are planted there, and very, very few are our own creations. Awareness of the level of social engineering occurring to us can be stifling and frustrating. Especially when most people just think you are crazy and don't listen to anything you say! Those people are struggling with many other realities. All of our realities are important. They all make up the whole. It is always interesting to me when I become riled up about this. It is the sheer audacity of the controllers that sometimes frustrates me, then I remember...............

The reason for their existence tells me we have still many things to learn about ourselves. Whether we like it or not they are a manifestation of many things we seldom wish to address within ourselves. It is a humbling moment to take a quick moral inventory and reflect upon progress made in becoming that which I really seek to be. So the goal reforms itself, to identify that which is keeping me coming back for more fun and games. So I continue, the never ending quest for that one simple thing,.........the truth of our being. Someday I will remember.

Down in a Hole

I have spent the better part of 25 yrs. searching for truth, both inside and outside. I have hung out with American Natives learning their spiritual ways, I have spent countless hours in reading and contemplation. The culmination of my search leading me to my present state of being. I have not achieved total enlightenment, and I probably never will, in this lifetime. I have learned that as disturbing as the truth may be at the time, it always leads me to a place of peace and well being, eventually. To my fellow seekers out there I wish you many hours of astonishment and confusion, for as any seasoned truth seeker knows, the dismantling of deception requires a death of sorts to belief systems that no longer hold up under scrutiny. My personal life has been comprised of turmoil and upheaval for many years. It has only been in the last year and a half that my life has calmed. I suppose as a direct result of letting go of certain naive belief systems that I held on to way longer than their true usefulness would deem necessary. I am a slow learner. Once I do finally get it, I embrace it, until the next bout of upheaval roots out the unnecessary beliefs. It is a process likened to peeling in onion. There are always layers of truth and deception to be dealt with.

Down in a hole represents my findings as a result of this constant, ongoing process. I am always changing. I am always honored when someone points out any misconception or distortion in my findings. I certainly never claim to know it all. I always welcome criticism, and it doesn't have to be limited to constructive, as destructive is equally as important. I do not have much of a need for self satisfaction as I suffer from no delusions of grandeur. I am as regular a guy as they come.
I have learned the importance of accepting new and different realities on a regular basis. This often accompanies the likes of admittance to being wrong or misguided on many occasions, to numerous to list! I am not paid or solicited by any outside force or agency. I do not try to engage in fear mongering, even though my findings may be unsettling. I have no political, religious affiliations, though at times do agree with certain works of certain individuals. Ah but the joys of keeping the ego in proper prospective! So as you read my perspective it is always issued with a reminder. These are my opinions, often supported with years of searching, but all the same they are mine. I do not wish that anyone would BELIEVE what I am stating here without doing some of their own research. Hence the name "Down in a Hole". My only intent is to show you some holes in some of the belief systems that you may wish to go down into and investigate for yourself. One thing I can assure you. Nothing is entirely as it seems to be. The most solid, firmly grounded constructs of society, are beginning to crack and break down from the immense stress and strain from the newly emerging energy that is human consciousness. These are the most terrifying times and these are the most exciting times! May we all find and maintain balance and peace of mind and heart as we continue are adventure as time/space traveling entities. Many fantastic truths lie waiting to be accepted. Hang on cause the ride is about to get good, or bad, depending of course on your perspective. I have come to believe we are here to experience a galactic- evolutionary moment of epic proportions! When will it happen? Now! And every moment that happened before, and everyone that occurs in the future! Happy hole searching.
Oh, by the way, the red pill is the only way to go in life!

The Exact Nature

Divide and conquer is the most efficient method to weaken the opposition. This method has been enacted upon all of humanity for thousands of years. It has never been more obvious then today. The control grid is almost flawless. The end result of constant attention to detail. Where the handlers lack any understanding of empathy or concern for our well being, they more than make up for it with their vast knowledge of human behavior.

By constantly manipulating our environment, they change our perceptions of the parameters that dramatically affect, if not directly shape, our view of our world. It is through their created paradigm that all social rules evolve, very often from very deceptive means. Almost every aspect of society is under the influence of these parasitic control freaks. Technological advances have increased, in direct proportion their ability to create the invisible walls that are closing in on us, each day. As constricting as the pressure is, for most people, it is vital to awakening them to the exact nature of their reality.

They have maintained their control by intentionally stunting our growth. Their designed paradigm, a complex labyrinth of ever increasing, complex levels of illusions. The only way to see this is to question the validity of life itself here at this moment. The fact is, life ends, and begins at every moment. Once you sign on, your in for a completely unique experience, directly proportional to your level of being. My job is to help you strip away the superficial, self inflicted, controlled paradigm, to realize at a deeper level, how powerful and magnificent you really are.

Every single person on the planet is directly responsible for our shared reality. We all contribute to it's empowerment, we all add to it's decline. We are in a constantly shifting sea of consciousness, that ebbs and flows, through natural laws, as old as the universe itself. The more you understand the interconnected relationship between us all, the more you realize the role that the ruling elite play, in controlling and manipulating us. They are preforming a vital role in our evolutionary process, for we will either realize the lessons to be learned by being imprisoned, thus freeing ourselves from their grasp, or we continue to live by their warped inconsistencies, that will eventually consume us, to the point of being forced to return, time and time again, until we liberate ourselves, once and for all. Their rule over us, through their hidden mental prison, is the most important lesson to learn.

The process is one of slow, steady growth. The path is full of AHA! moments that keep you moving forward, in between the bouts of pain, sadness, and despair. Try to accept these challenges with grace and ease. The more you just feel these moments and try not to resist or cover them up, the smoother the transition process becomes. We are in a battle to unify ourselves. That is why you see all of the conflict in the world. It is simply a holographic representation of our inner conflict. We all have it to some degree, or we wouldn't be here in this moment.

My intent is simply to try and systematically dissolve the hidden prison we are confined by. The first step is to realize it exists. I don't think you can do that by denying the broken world that surrounds us. I think it is wise to accept and embrace what is being withheld from us. We have the power within us to make the internal change, thus creating a world where there would be no need for a ruling elite, who have their own spiritual needs that are not being fulfilled. If we would stand up to them, helping them to realize we are as worthy as they are, they would be able to change also. Their intellect and technology, coupled with our understanding and love, would change the world in a moment. That, my friends, is one of the most liberating solutions for all of us. Not a world wide government. Not a world wide monetary system. Not a world wide religion.

Sometimes

Sometimes I know I come across as arrogant, but if you really knew me, you would know I just get really upset because of what I see. I don't think I'm any better then anyone else. I just get frustrated because I see enough of the intentional programming to know how deep it runs. We are all in this together. We all need this planet at this time. This is where we act out our lives. It is where we learn our lessons, internal and external. Part of my contempt is the frustration that comes with understanding that the overall control paradigm was set up, on multiple different levels, to ensnare the entity who is trying to breech the security measures. in essence, the moment you see past the illusion, a new one materializes, with a little more depth, substance, and complexity. Daunting the task becomes to continue to progress through the maze. If you travel too far ahead, it becomes more difficult to show the way. Not that I think I am the only one solving the maze. The further in the labyrinth the sparser the population becomes. There is not a lot of guidance here. It is the way the maze is set up. I am not special, I am not extremely gifted, I only have a tenacious desire to think for myself, objectively, and try to encourage other people to do the same for themselves. That is where, what I call, the programing comes in. This is not a place where there is unlimited love and encouragement to be unique and think for ourselves. The exact opposite seems to be true. We are processed, molded, fashioned, manipulated, controlled to think, act, and behave within an ever narrowing chute of being. I keep trying to divert the procession. I don't even know why I exert so much of my energy doing this. No one seems to listen (except of course my loving partner in life) however I am propelled to continue to try. I have come to terms with this, and know I would be absolutely miserable if I ever stopped trying to question the program. Then comes the revelation. You CAN'T think your way out of the maze. Don't get me wrong, a clear perspective is vital but only half of the equation. The other half lies within the opening of the heart. If you don't know love, you will never get beyond the wall of the maze that seems to ensnare 9o per cent of the participants. There are many peaceful warriors working feverishly to breach the chute so the masses can stream through to a new place of being. I have experienced loving and being loved. It is the source of all that I am. It is the only thing that keeps me here. I am sure of that. Love also must grow beyond yourself or another human being, although it seems the logical place to start. It must grow to ALL who are in the maze, and even those who created the maze! The perspective that helps me with this is realizing I have chosen to be here. This helps me to take full responsibility for my thoughts, actions, and intents here. I can honestly say I am not interested in wealth or notoriety. I intend to be empowered here, but only to the extent I can help others to be empowered. That power lies in love and understanding and empathy. Which means EVERYONE has a right to be here and learn. Which is why I get so upset. The prime objective of the maze builders, does not appear to me to be a very nice one. It appears to me to be to enslave and feast upon the innocence and fear of others. The maze builders are incapable of love. That's why they will always seek to keep us. They will not allow themselves the opportunity to be what they know we ARE becoming. Once WE do become what we are capable of, their reign will end. Guess what? I cheated. I stole a glimpse at the end of the maze. They eventually become discovered. We all get out of the maze, and all get to go home........but only if we keep trying to get out. For you see, even though the past, present, and future are not what they seem, we still need to learn the truth of our reality to achieve the end. Which, of course, is just a new beginning, of a new maze, with new rules, to be questioned, challenged, and eventually broken! Peace to you all! May you all find your way through the maze, and, by the way, their are places to breach the walls, short cuts, if you will! ( The all seeing eye winks!)

Capitulation

This is an ink drawing titled "Capitulation" I created this about 2 months ago. I chose the title, to make reference to the sometimes overwhelming need to surrender. Many times we feel completely overwhelmed by all that is happening. You can feel completely drained with trying to just live in today's modern society. Pressure is mounting from every angle. As the true nature of our world is being revealed it is staggering to the senses. Corruption, greed, and control, seem to take the driver's seat over love, compassion, and helping our fellow man. I am in complete overload, most of the time, as I try to establish just why it is we allow our world to be this way. The fact of the matter is to me, the vast majority of us "common folk" are hard working, sincere, kind hearted people. We believe that our morals are sound, our perceptions correct, and our feelings true. We try to play by the rules as established, in order to make a better place for us and our children. We want so desperately to believe in the power of good! We are trained to think evil is wrong and that we must overcome the evil with acts of purity, and goodness. Or sometimes we rationalize that it's okay to fight evil with evil. What capitulation is trying to say, in symbolic imagery, is this place is comprised of a duality of existence. And only to the extent that both energies are balanced is the experience either engaged in or denied. Think about it. How fully engaged in our world are we? Do we realize the extent of our give and take in this world. Capitulation represents the surrender of all thoughts, emotions, and consciousness to the pursuit of learning the exact nature of who and what we REALLY are! It is my way of saying, the most important thing to me is truth, be it good or bad, positive or negative, right or wrong. That's me sitting in the middle, in a half fetal half meditative position, contemplating truth. My dual connection through my DNA representing my inside world, to the outside world and back again. A perpetual cycle of give and receive, life and death, the alpha and the omega. The gas mask I'm wearing represents many different things. Most importantly, my imperfect thinking, my falling prey to my own illusions, my inability at times to balance the energies. My erroneous, assumption that all things poisonous come from outside of me, forgetting the outside world is a projection of our collective inside worlds. Also the need to hide my identity behind a mask, thus at times hiding my own nature from myself, or symbolically being afraid to integrate the shadow self. Despite all of the spiritual coming of age struggles, the end result is a new born self, taking shape in between the new DNA strands that emerge as a result of integration of the dualistic nature. A lively little bugger, already climbing up his own source of life in the never ending pursuit of truth! I hope you enjoyed a little behind the scenes take on my motivation for my artwork. As it's own piece, it can take on whatever meaning you need. As an experiment I am going to look it again 6 months from now, and rewrite it's symbolic meaning. If anyone would like to share what the piece means to them I would be thrilled to hear from you! May you all be blessed, loved, and protected as you live out your lives in these crazy times! Take care.